Hello World

Hi..
I'm a 22 year old boy living in Ranchi.
This is me first time writing a blog.So I thought of writing about my life .
My life ! Its pretty boring struggling and fun..
I always wished to have enough money to achieve my life's goal but always stuck myself broke. I love music, cinematography, photography but only had manage to get a few equipment to do so  ... I fell so unfair that other have so many money to wast and I and my friends struggle to make a next move in live all stuck for only one reason , Money!

My parents are missionary and life feels its control of God. And I believe it is  and sometime life makes me maybe not. It really appreciable to see God's blessing upon me. But one other hand I have so less to do. Everyday I'm struggling to earn money to fulfill my daily basic needs. And all prayerful promises parents tells me feel faded . I know God is there but He has other work to do. People live people die , innocent one cry . Seeing so unfair things happening to people who don't deserve is common . Now I'm habituated so being treated unjust coz this is life a quantum computer which  can be Good and Bad at the same time. Sometime I feel alright for what happened in past but when thing go worst in present feel so bad. I believe God is just and will provide me my needs and my wishes . But He has is own perfect time. But sometimes it feels maybe it happen when I grew old and Its no use for me because this scares the shit out of me.  But Hoping to see some changes in life.
If you are wondering my complain of finance only. I have be all through this relationship torture by my ex's . I also have a wish to see them dead but I have forgive them for there wrongs.  Finally my current Girlfriend found me at my shop and then I found someone who loves me. I don't wish to be rich but have enough to live life as I desire ...